And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation-- some fact of my life-- unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is suppose to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God's world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.
-Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous p417 (4th ed)
Living life on life's terms is rather difficult for me... I am an activist and I believe in changing the world, but I often forget that I need to 'be the change' first. I talk the talk rather well... I've been seeing some patterns in my behaviors and thoughts lately that have prompted me to try to get my life together a little more. I have a plan now and am working on executing it. I'm spread rather thin and have not been good with self-care or self-advocacy lately. Right now I need to accept the state of things as they are and focus on what about me needs to change to meet my now... although some of this may seem in conflict with creating change, it isn't... I don't think?
